a proper post you say

hello. i'm a 19 year old white guilty guy who has nothing better to do at the moment but write a load of unnerving bollocks on his blog.

i've been wondering and pondering about my future a lot in the past days. and the truth it's that i'm not really that shure about anything, but as the time goes by, im getting prepared for uni next year (Fine Art) and for my impending jump into the fame cheap rock magazine podium world because me and my band are becoming cliched boring rockstars soon. if we haven't already.

Last months with the band (which we are thinking of calling Lupus, as the auto-inmune disease, to fit our self-destructive behaviour pattern) have been both extremely harsh soap-opera drama and rather fun and exciting. a couple of self appointed night owls showed up at our gigs and we've been writing and rehearsing a lot. but we need aLot more.

whatever. - ive been going out a lot lately. i think this is somehow to balance my lack of friends/parties at my 14's when i was a REAL constructive-dontgiveafuck-punkrock-independent-loner, and not the self destructive drunk pot-addict rooftop jumper boring bipolar-need my dose of lithium hyperactive, writing-blocked ''artist'', one whole year without girlfriend wanker, piece of shit i am at the moment.




at least i know more music by now.
...let me tell you more about this last bit.

i discovered a few new -rather old- albums recently, and i re-discovered some others i had in my hard drive/bookshelf/inside my pants. =

- Flipper - Generic
- The Wipers - Youth of America
- Black Flag - Damaged
- At the Drive-In - In/Casino/Out
- PJ Harvey - Dry
- Yo La Tengo - May I Sing With Me
- Husker Dü - Zen Arcade
- Bowie - The Man Who Sold The World
- Slowdive - Pygmaliom
- Blonde Redhead - 23
- Dave Gahan - Hourglass
- Dinosaud Jr - Green Mind + You're Living All Over Me
- Patti Smith - Radio Ethiopia
- Parts & Labor - Mapmaker
- The Beatles - The Beatles (Commercially known as The White Album)
- Pixies - Discography
- Pavement - Discography
- Shellac - At Action Park
- The Stooges - Funhouse
- Low - I Could Live In Hope
- Manic Street Preachers - The Holy Bible
- Television - Marquee Moon
- The Velvet Underground - White Light / White Heat
- Slint - Spiderland

yeah its shaping up better than the Portishead, Radiohead, Sonic Youth, Mansun, Joy Division, The Smiths, bitch ive been last month.
hurrah!




to not go astray, and keep you entertained heres a what i like section

i like friends, i like people, i like girls, i like going out, i like getting drunk, i like MUSIC, music makes me feel alive, i like nature, i like trees, i like being up in the rooftops, i like long senseless walks, getting caught in the rain, practicing with my band, having sex, i like drawing, i like to be myself, i like pot, i like thunderstorms, i like winter, i love swimming, i like lying in my bed shirtless listening to music, i like playing guitar, i like making noise music, i like building my own fuzz distortion pedals even when i cant solder one fuckin circuit. i like coke, i like being wrong and get into trouble, i like to go to bed late, i like different types of music, i like videogames, music software, drum machines, i like wearing creepy weird odd old- fashioned clothes, i love reading and painting, i like the comfort in knowing that my upbringing and class makes me imposible to end up in a big pile of shit, that i may not be becoming a musician or an artist, but if i dont i know that i'll be a judge, high ranking employee or someones boss and will get enough money to make art out of it anyways. and as kurt cobain once said 'i like and i am grateful for the happy-for-the-blue-collar worker whos existence allows artists to not have to work at menial jobs.

i dont like closed minded people. i dont like people who thinks theyre better or superior than others. i dont like lack of sincerity. i dont like all those chains people are bounded to. i dont like religion, but i respect it. i dont like macho-full of sperm-hair rock, i dont like people who hates, i dont like people who prejudice, i dont like people who cant be arsed to listen to a band/song/album you told them are good but still have got the time and the opinion to claim it's shit and that they dont like it. i dont like people who hate gays because theyre all pretty cool. i dont like paedophiles, i dont like murderers, i dont like people who would kill to impose theyre opinions.

im writing 11 songs for a solo proyect mini disc ill be sending to the main radiostations across the country. soon i'll bein the airlines from the green fiels of worcestershire to the dark deep underground caves of hp lovecraft creepy tales. in a top 10 hit songs along with britney spears, paul /the walrus/ mccartney, muse and madonna.
ugh


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