=THE RUBBISH TIMES=

these are my twisted words

2007-03-31T02:47:00.003Z

g8 sucks my cock

2007-06-19T20:18:00.001Z

its been a long time since i dont update this shit... as i always say... well weeks been interesting and ive been busy. lot of time since we dont have band session. i really dont care. i feel tired right now. inneed of some cereal and milk.

go up roof with my guitar at 8pm and play in limbo at dusk..
fast moving clouds and all.

at the moment my room looks odd.. like too much 'disorder'
which is when im busy to make my bed and stuff
when picks and pens get lost between loads of dirty clothes and school papers

ugh
x

perhaps vampires is a bit strong but...

2007-07-25T19:01:00.002Z

pavlo

xxx

lol

2007-08-08T02:57:00.002Z

right. destroyed room. guitar need new strings. my t-shirt smells. i'm writing some new stuff on an old notebook I found. winter is raw. pretty cold. fast, and furious wind system. I like it, reminds me a lot of the kid a dark part (from in limbo to motion picture soundtrack). mates came home, we talked a bit, burnt some cds.. songs we gotta practice to cover on our rehearsals. I first laughed at "covers" stuff but again, I just will accept it.
I got my hand all hurt after playing furiously over blow out. bad me. 24 on tv is getting interesting. radiohead messageboard is getting boring. I think i'll quit. someday. maybe not.

if you tolerate this then yr children will be next

2007-09-10T20:30:00.001Z

monday shit... couple of good things happened at school...
as example of the monday success there's the 'A' I got in my
history of education lesson. and also met some nice girl.

I bought a record by bela bartók. its a compilation of two
of his works. concerto for orchesta and concerto N2 for violin
sounds quite cool. im also really into liars and sonic youth at
the moment. and amnesiac by radiohead.

gotta see if we're meeting on tomorrow with the boys for a
band practice. things may go well. I expect so;

x

a place

2007-09-12T21:44:00.002Z

(c2)

So

2008-02-25T18:30:00.005Z

theres a story about a place where it rains all the time and when people decide to kill themselves they stand with their faces turned to the sky mouths open until they drown

...

2009-01-07T01:26:00.005Z

my new bass I

my new bass II

me I

psychic hearts

2009-05-05T19:55:00.000Z

I know you have a fucked up life
growing up in a stupid town
your mother was a mixed up chick
and your father he just fucked around
a little too much for his own good
I'd kill the bastard if I could
I'd kill all the boys with their fucked up noise
and all the bullshit they seem to enjoy
the kids at school
called you slut
nothing but
and what the fuck are they into
the stupid fools
losers assholes suck all the luck
out of the world the world for you
if I can get it back to you I will
and kick their asses all over town
all over town I'll turn it over
and I don't even know you that well
what the hell summer spell

what's it like
going out
and no one knows what you're about
abused and used and cut in two
by hollow man with nothing to do

laugh all the time try to get high
and try to hide behind the lie

they fucked your head up
that's for sure
your heart is ripped now wrapped in fur
but you know that sex is pretty insane
and magic seems to kill the pain
and the things that go on inside your brain
makes you seem to think that you're to blame
don't think about it
throw it out
love 'em all and say it loud
fight the scumbags that slap you around
scream your crazy lost and found
we don't have to tell you what is right
we have all the faith that it was not right

sadness is and sadness was
and sadness will always be because
comfort comes around from the strangest of men

I got no time for sad songs baby
don't need you to say I'm crazy
stick your tongue and you look at me
and I will bite it off you see
push you down onto your knees
do you laugh away the flees

you're not the only one in town
but you're the only one that's got me down
psychic hearts go out to you
a psychic heart go round to you

my prayer to you
is that you do all the things you set out to do
and live your life the way you love
but will you remember one thing for me
I will always love you
I will always love you

I N / R A I N B O W S

2007-12-18T19:03:00.001Z

Snow Fall

2007-07-10T18:12:00.001Z

autumn that is?

2007-06-19T20:30:00.001Z

if you....

go down...

tonight....

eurgh...

wheres my chocolate cake, pot
and my condoms?

dont worry
i could never do that

yet
x

oops..missed a word

do you have fear of music?

2009-03-31T14:25:00.003Z

do you listen to the music or do you listen to everybody's opinions on the artist?
why do people claim things to be over or under rated? does it actually have to do with the music? when music press + journalists love to wank all over someones records, does that make this album a bad album.. only because its 'hype' on musical press?

if the music is good enough and makes you feel something, its worth its price as art, and it doesnt matter how boring, cliched, over rated it is for others.

what i guess i mean, is, i know this person who listens to Jandek and Merzbow as much as he listens to Nirvana and the Sex Pistols... and he doesn't have a problem with that, because he knows what he does like and what he does enjoy. (me hah)

love x

stupid band pic up in the roof

2009-03-15T23:46:00.002Z

from left to right:
left: syncopated beat fan drummer
center: guitar + mouth
right: redhaired useless bass player (me)

recording session

2009-03-15T23:34:00.003Z

my friend (guitar) + me (bass)

me wtf

i am recording the damn BASS

i am recording the damn bass 2

last week band shoot (poser)

news

2009-01-23T00:34:00.004Z

i'm putting up a new blog and myspace soon. i find myself currently working on a nice bunch of songs and paintings. i am not really sure if i'm releasing an album, because the songs sound so different from each other that i don't think they would fit all in the same recording.
i've been writing stuff in violin, piano, keyboards, electric and acoustic guitars, bass, and music software. and there are a lot of different styles, so i might just release a series of EP's and see if it works out that way.

about the paintings... its a collection of 10 drawings... stuff i've been working on through the last years that include: businessman turning into trees, businessman with his head exploding, black-plague doctors leading a row of children into a pit, some local buildings being washed away by gigantic waves, drawings of victorian ghosts and demons in general, and more fucked up bullshit.

i could keep writing and writing about how things are shaping up but that'd be a waste of time and netspace. and it'd probably kill the magic of my upcoming releases as well.

keep in touch.

karma

2008-12-31T16:31:00.004Z

records im currently obsessed with

wipers - is this real?

the vaselines - the way of the vaselines

modeselektor - hello mom!

Have a very happy new years eve

2007-12-29T18:17:00.001Z

hope you have a good time next days
2007 has been quite cool i guess. a gigantic lot of stuff happened.
so do all those emo new years eve stuff.
ill stick at my monitor to watch radiohead.tv

x

waters moving

2007-10-14T23:08:00.001Z

I got caught in the middle of the storm
and I may end up in the wrong shore.

honestly I'm one of those persons who fill their heads up with lots of senseless shit. im a fucking sponge. i tend to absorb both good and bad around my wavelenght... and it always gets to the point where it affects my decisions. thing is I got to choose some uni degree. hm... scratching my head a lot. thinking stuff through. rethinking.

old times.. lying in the roof, a drink and good music. climbing up trees. graffiti and paintings on walls. writing stuff late at night with no help but a cup of coffee. playing guitar for hours. pretty loud at the point mum would have to shout at me to turn the volume down. band sessions on tuesdays or fridays. friends. girls I wish I could talk to. watching prison break, 24, dr. house and the law and order (special victims unit, cos the rest it's rubbish) reading my fav reviews at nothingatall.net, reading chomsky, freud, sartre, assimilate it all, disagree, spend a whole night thinking about the meaning of it all just to fall asleep before getting any conclusion....

well not pretty 'old times' as i still doing so. but again....

the sorting hats says

a - psychology
b - philosophy

answers on a postcard direct to my room.

bluh yek boo foo + love

meep meep meep

2007-05-29T21:31:00.001Z

Welcome

2007-02-08T15:05:00.002Z

hello.. erm...

guna put some of my work up. soon. hopefully...
it's mainly text, pictures, drawings and music.

and i have to do it all quickly before
it goes away... a bit like the supermarket
so i better start to work on those sketchy ideas
before it's too late

talk to you soon.

mmm

2008-12-02T01:48:00.004Z

Manic Street Preachers - Gold Against The Soul
Listen to: Yourself

The Wipers - Youth of America
Listen to: When it's Over

Radiohead - My Iron Lung EP
Listen to: Permanent Daylight

on my own

2008-12-02T02:02:00.002Z

its cold outside... and it's raining like hell.. i've had math classes, i got all wet on my way back home... so here i am, sitting, getting warm and sipping tea ocasionally whilst writing the lyrics of a song in a paper sheet.

we've just recorded our single.. it's a 21 track rock song... it sounds good as far as i can tell, it needs some production and mixing... i'm really looking forward stuff like this

on the other hand, i'm saving enough money to go somewhere for a while.. i don't really feel i need anything right now except for this urge for disappearing from the face of this planet. i dont mind living in a boat and or become a gravedigger as long as i can find myself at least for a day.

on the other hand (the 3rd?) i wish my mate would give me my Nirvana Reading 92 dvd back

sleepy xxx

a proper post you say

2008-11-02T15:09:00.008Z

hello. i'm a 19 year old white guilty guy who has nothing better to do at the moment but write a load of unnerving bollocks on his blog.

i've been wondering and pondering about my future a lot in the past days. and the truth it's that i'm not really that shure about anything, but as the time goes by, im getting prepared for uni next year (Fine Art) and for my impending jump into the fame cheap rock magazine podium world because me and my band are becoming cliched boring rockstars soon. if we haven't already.

Last months with the band (which we are thinking of calling Lupus, as the auto-inmune disease, to fit our self-destructive behaviour pattern) have been both extremely harsh soap-opera drama and rather fun and exciting. a couple of self appointed night owls showed up at our gigs and we've been writing and rehearsing a lot. but we need aLot more.

whatever. - ive been going out a lot lately. i think this is somehow to balance my lack of friends/parties at my 14's when i was a REAL constructive-dontgiveafuck-punkrock-independent-loner, and not the self destructive drunk pot-addict rooftop jumper boring bipolar-need my dose of lithium hyperactive, writing-blocked ''artist'', one whole year without girlfriend wanker, piece of shit i am at the moment.

at least i know more music by now.
...let me tell you more about this last bit.

i discovered a few new -rather old- albums recently, and i re-discovered some others i had in my hard drive/bookshelf/inside my pants. =

- Flipper - Generic
- The Wipers - Youth of America
- Black Flag - Damaged
- At the Drive-In - In/Casino/Out
- PJ Harvey - Dry
- Yo La Tengo - May I Sing With Me
- Husker Dü - Zen Arcade
- Bowie - The Man Who Sold The World
- Slowdive - Pygmaliom
- Blonde Redhead - 23
- Dave Gahan - Hourglass
- Dinosaud Jr - Green Mind + You're Living All Over Me
- Patti Smith - Radio Ethiopia
- Parts & Labor - Mapmaker
- The Beatles - The Beatles (Commercially known as The White Album)
- Pixies - Discography
- Pavement - Discography
- Shellac - At Action Park
- The Stooges - Funhouse
- Low - I Could Live In Hope
- Manic Street Preachers - The Holy Bible
- Television - Marquee Moon
- The Velvet Underground - White Light / White Heat
- Slint - Spiderland

yeah its shaping up better than the Portishead, Radiohead, Sonic Youth, Mansun, Joy Division, The Smiths, bitch ive been last month.
hurrah!

to not go astray, and keep you entertained heres a what i like section

i like friends, i like people, i like girls, i like going out, i like getting drunk, i like MUSIC, music makes me feel alive, i like nature, i like trees, i like being up in the rooftops, i like long senseless walks, getting caught in the rain, practicing with my band, having sex, i like drawing, i like to be myself, i like pot, i like thunderstorms, i like winter, i love swimming, i like lying in my bed shirtless listening to music, i like playing guitar, i like making noise music, i like building my own fuzz distortion pedals even when i cant solder one fuckin circuit. i like coke, i like being wrong and get into trouble, i like to go to bed late, i like different types of music, i like videogames, music software, drum machines, i like wearing creepy weird odd old- fashioned clothes, i love reading and painting, i like the comfort in knowing that my upbringing and class makes me imposible to end up in a big pile of shit, that i may not be becoming a musician or an artist, but if i dont i know that i'll be a judge, high ranking employee or someones boss and will get enough money to make art out of it anyways. and as kurt cobain once said 'i like and i am grateful for the happy-for-the-blue-collar worker whos existence allows artists to not have to work at menial jobs.

i dont like closed minded people. i dont like people who thinks theyre better or superior than others. i dont like lack of sincerity. i dont like all those chains people are bounded to. i dont like religion, but i respect it. i dont like macho-full of sperm-hair rock, i dont like people who hates, i dont like people who prejudice, i dont like people who cant be arsed to listen to a band/song/album you told them are good but still have got the time and the opinion to claim it's shit and that they dont like it. i dont like people who hate gays because theyre all pretty cool. i dont like paedophiles, i dont like murderers, i dont like people who would kill to impose theyre opinions.

im writing 11 songs for a solo proyect mini disc ill be sending to the main radiostations across the country. soon i'll bein the airlines from the green fiels of worcestershire to the dark deep underground caves of hp lovecraft creepy tales. in a top 10 hit songs along with britney spears, paul /the walrus/ mccartney, muse and madonna.
ugh

love
x

2008-08-22T19:32:00.003+01:00